Love this one too. Oops! That is not exactly the one I wanted to load. Oh, well. Still nice one of the girl. He was brushing her hair. Cute. 
~~I did it again. I started another project. See? Look down. 
I am making longies out of that yarn. I know. I have no will power. I did, however, finish the hat in just one day. And, I even worked a bunch of rows on the shawl. Really.
~~I hate knitting lace. I will finish it. But not start another one, probably ever.
~~I am still not sleeping well. I have been taking the iron supplement. My midwife says I probably won't notice a difference for a few weeks. I also finally found a chiropractor who takes our insurance (yes!) and is wonderful, and not too far away (only 1/2 hour). I can't wait to go see him again this week.
~~What ever happened to midwifery?? Am I still in "school"? Do I still study? Attend births?
Yes, I am still in school, technically. I go to a school that allows you to work at your own pace, therefore allowing "breaks". This pregnancy has been a big break, and not one I was expecting. All of my classroom/academic stuff is done already. I simply have clinicals to finish. I was about 50% done with those when I became pregnant (this time around....I also started out school when I was pregnant last time).
The midwife I work with is super understanding about me not being able to handle anything more than Just This Pregnancy. It helps that she is also my midwife. I plan to start seeing patients with her again once the baby is somewhere between 3-6 months old. We see patients 1-2 days a week for prenatals and I can bring my baby with. I can start getting the rest of my birth assists and primaries once my daughter is maybe 6-9 months old.....or older. We'll see what kind of baby I have. They are all different, and I am really not into leaving my baby. It depends on how far along labors are, if it's a first, second, or more baby for a mama, etc. Lots of factors go into me being able to go to a birth.
I will say I truly miss the work. I have been reading my textbooks late at night when I can't sleep. Dorky, I know. But I LOVE this stuff. I also started reading my favorite midwifery book of all time the other night, "Baby Catcher" by Peggy Vincent. I got this book before I became pregnant with my second child. It made me seek out a midwife for my next pregnancy/birth and cemented my desire to become a midwife. Reading it now really makes me miss attending births.....but I just can't. And I know there will be plenty of time for that later.
~~My husband's birthday was yesterday (ok, 2 days ago, as I write this Sunday night, but really it's 1 am Monday morning). We took the kids out to dinner at a super fancy smancy restaurant where the dinners are $35/plate. Chris and I have been there a few times in the past (read once or twice a year for the last few years). There is always sooooo much food that he and I ordered meals and just ordered salads for the kids (and 1 plate of french fries for the babies to share). We both split our meals with the kids and we still brought home leftovers. Our bill wasn't too high and the kids loved having such fancy food served to them. They thought the unending loaves of fresh baked bread that we had to cut ourselves was the best part.
~~I have a confession of sorts to make. Really, I just want to say something that isn't really bad, just bothering me.
I missed Mass about 6 weeks ago for no good reason at all. (I was tired and didn't feel like getting up, but I also didn't bother to go to a later Mass that day either.) I haven't missed any Masses except that one. But I also haven't managed to make it to Confession since I missed the Mass. This, of course, means I haven't received the Eucharist since then either. It really sucks to sit at Mass and NOT be able to go up and receive our Lord. Sucks big time. Especially when my husband keeps asking me why I am not going up. I keep telling him. He just thinks I am being stubborn. But I know that it is a grave sin to miss Mass and that I am not to receive Holy Communion until I go to Confession.
The problem is not that I don't want to go to Confession. It's that Confession is only on Saturdays. I never think about going until Sunday morning. I wish we lived in a time when there were enough priests that there was Confession before (and sometimes during) every Mass. That would be really awesome. I would probably go every single time I went to Mass, even if it was a weekday Mass.
What I probably need to do is simply get there early on Sunday and ask our priest if he would have time for a confession after Mass. Usually they are pretty accommodating when someone wants a confessor.
That's all I have for now. I hope you had a wonderful weekend.
3 comments:
yowsa! that's quite a "brain spill"
it's okay to knit more longies.
i have not enrolled in our midwifery school because attending births is just not going to be happening any time soon for me.... and my baby is 4.5! There is a time limit to finishing the course I will enroll in, so I'm thinking that when I'm as certain as I can be that I'm in menopause that I might start then. Maybe. I'd hate to have enrolled, started and then get a "bonus baby" and have to stop. (plus i'm still struggling with things after my own last birth. in my dream world, i would only deal with "perfect" births, no problems or transfers....)
I'm with you on missing mass here and there. It's made more difficult if your significant other IS NOT Catholic.
(Me replying to comments, take 2....the one from my phone yesterday obviously didn't go)
BWYA - Technically, I have 5 years from enrollment to finish school. I enrolled in Jan 2008. So, it should work out. That gives plenty of time for breaks. I really wanted to "quit" when I became pregnant in Dec 2007, but my instructors and the school both convinced me I could do it pregnant and then with a newborn. I am still not really sure that I agree that. So far, I am managing. I am an "attachment parent" so that makes it harder, and easier, to do what I do.
And you totally have me curious about your last birth story. Maybe we could email sometime about that. :)
Papa K- My husband is a cradle Catholic who hadn't been to Mass in well over 10 years when we got married. That was OK with him and with me at the time.
He wasn't exactly super excited when our marriage started to fall apart and I found the Catholic Faith to get me through. Then I converted, and he was *really* not excited.
I just kept going to Mass every single week, and always took all the kids.
After about a year, or a year and a half, he either got curious, bored, or sick of being left at home and started coming with us.
Then, about 6 months later, he went to Confession for the first time in about 20 years. Pretty cool.
I realize Bunny *isn't* Catholic....but you can keep going to Mass, take DLG, and pray for continued conversion of your wife's heart (which you may already do). It just takes a lot of patience and prayer. :)
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