That "Almost Baptized" Feeling

Hee hee!! Haw-haw!!



~H

Crabby

It's not that I don't have anything to say. It's just that I'm rather crabby. I'm busy and stressed and I don't feel the need to unload it all unto you.

I've been a bad blogger, but I'm hoping to change sometime soon.

In my world:

This bar burning down thing is bothering me more than I thought it would. Weird.

I am sick of being fat. I don't mind NOT being the skinny teenager I was when I started having babies. But I do mind being so wide I fit nicely into my husband's size 2XL t-shirts. Honestly.

I'm glad I gave up cake for Lent. It makes it that much easier not to eat it now.

I really need to sell my house. We found a house to buy 5 minutes from where my husband works.

Being a midwife is the most rewarding thing I could ever do....next to being a mother.

I actually enjoy watching Blue's Clues. Really.

Knitting is like heroin. I'm addicted. I love it!!

I have finally realized that I have always had a walking partner, no matter what time of day or night it is. My doggie. He's my new bud.

I am reading a book called "Hand of God" by Bernard Nathanson, M.D. It's an autobiography where he chronicles his life. He ran the largest abortion clinic in the country in the 60's & 70's. He eventually changed his mind about abortion, but not before he founded NARAL and helped make abortion legal. It tells his pro-life conversion and conversion to the Roman Catholic Faith. I'm only about 30 pages in. IT IS SO GOOD. Fascinating really.

My Lovey is 8 months old. He is so big, so strong, so precious. I feel so blessed.

Flower is almost 3 and finally doing the typical age 2 stuff: throwing fits, saying "Mine!", becoming super cuddly, wanting to wear mismatching clothes, and following me around wanting to be a "little mommy". Love, love, love this age.

Wobbers needs to stop growing. I don't ever remember giving him permission to grow up. He never asked if he could enter adolescence. What right does he have to become a man? Ah, they really aren't ours. They're His. And the grow and move on and up. I'm glad I get to keep this one for another decade.

Hmmm, I guess I did have some things to say after all. Just needed to warm up to the keyboard.

God Bless all of you in this wonderful Easter season!!

~H

One More Thing.....

Yes, that is really a picture of the real building I worked/grew up working around and in.

And a thought occured to me: God loves all. He never gives up on anyone. Even people you love to hate. He keeps after them, keeps trying to get their attention, keeps trying to make them see that He's still there.

He whispers. Then He shouts. And then He tackles you and bangs your head with a hammer.

Is this my mom/brother/mom's husband's hammer?????

~H

Burnin'

My phone rang at 3:30 am this morning and woke me up. It was my husband.


"Have you heard?"


Heard what.....


"The bar is burning to the ground."


My mom's bar, which she and her husband own (not my dad), was on fire. We have friends that work there and one of them called my husband at work to let him know. This morning, I found a picture of the blaze online:

I have the strangest feeling about this. Part of me is happy. Part of me is a little sad. Please don't think I am being unsympatheitc or that I have a heart of stone. I am sad for my mom. But, I am happy that nor my husband or myself work there any longer. I also feel like there was so much evil and sin going on in that place, aside from the patrons and alcohol being served, that it is truly a blessing that none of that will happen there any longer.

I'll have more to say about this soon. My family is something that I've wanted to post about for a while and all the hidden feelings this blaze is stirring up is a good start.

For now, I pray that somehow through this a conversion of hearts can happen for my mom and brother, and even her husband.

~H

Only I....

could be excited about what is happening in my life tomorrow.

At midwifery class tomorrow we are doing pelvic exams, speculum and all, on each other.

I know. I'm weird. But I'm so excited to learn this stuff!!

~H

Mittens!

The mittens are beautiful. I currently have two done and plan to make a third. I made some modifications with the second one. I plan on more for the third. Poor Flower will have 3 mittens, none the same. I don't think she'll mind, though, since she's just 2 and they probably all look alike to her anyhow.

I actually already ripped the top of the second one....the sqaurer looking one there....and reknit it with a nice triangle-y angled top.

~H